standing amazed....

Never had I dreamed or even thought I would reach this stage. It's strange, but it's happening. And, it's for real....

Nine months ago I made a decision to step out of my comfort zone and really walk by faith by moving to Kansas City. I moved to America from Indonesia six years ago, so I thought, "How hard could it be?" Plus, Wichita is only three hours away - I can always go back. It's sad to say, but I was so wrong! For some people, moving isn't a big thing at all. Some may take it as an adventure. My family and friends know that I'm a planner. I usually have at least a year plan of my life. As much as I love suprises, when it comes to life, I would settle for the expected ones. A little boring for some, perhaps. But, certainly not for me.

I can say the past nine months have been good, but definetely challenging. Not having a church home is very frustrating. I have missed leading worship. In fact, I have missed it SO SO SO much that I can't even describe it. Sometimes I tell my friends how much I miss it, but I don't know if they can even feel what I feel - how much I long to do that. I love worship. I still do believe God calls me in that area. I don't dare to limit Him to call me to a bigger stuff, but I love it so much that my heart just burns to do that...

Nine months I asked, and I still do now...
Nine months I seeked, and I still do now...
Nine months I knocked, and I still do now...
Nine months I prayed, and I still still do now...
All for a place to serve....

The Lord hears my cry... He answers me....
Doors have been opened....
His face I found....
My prayers He answered...

God is good! Today is a day when I just feel so very excited - excuse me for a bad grammar *wink* I don't know how I got this excitement from, but I'm very sure that it is from Him. I still don't know what is going to happen on the days ahead, but...

Today is a day when I can look back and say, "Lord, now I know why you moved me here.." Today is a day when I say to myself, "Did I say that 'Lord, I know why you moved me here'?"
Today is a day when I am convinced that the grand plan is yet to be revealed....
Today is a day when I can take a deep breath and say, "Yes, God is faithful" with a smile on my face....
Today is a day when I can say, "thank you all for your prayers, because I can see His hands working so well in my life."

I once told a friend that I felt like my life's full of rain. It kept raining that I don't even know if I would be able to see a rainbow in the end. My friend answered me, "Do you have to see the rainbow?"

God made me realize that the rainbow has been there all this while.

I once was "lost," but now I'm so lost in the rivers of His love. I'm swept into the power of His presence... And, here I am standing amazed..... of Him...

if only i knew, i would have fought for it harder...

i'm back....

I'm not a faithful blogger, apparently! :) It's been a while since I wrote... Things have been awesome here! I never knew I would reach this mode ever! But, God has sure been so faithful! Lots of prayers have been answered... I'm so blessed!

ps: Oh, by the way, I'm on facebook now! Haha! I can't believe that's happening either! lol :)