My job has been posted for three days :)

We'll find out... :)

Pictures from last weekend....

It was a fun and relaxing Friday night. We just cooked and cooked and cooked. Then we all ate and ate and ate. Very typical Chinese lifestyle? Perhaps! Except that I don't know how to speak the language... Oh well!

Oh my goodness! The amount of food that we had... Oh, Lord! We're so blessed!

Because I've got YOU...

Exactly today six months ago, I woke up with butterflies in my stomach.
Exactly today six months ago, I entered a whole new world I've ever experienced in my life.
Exactly today six months ago, I had a brand new commitment in my life.
Exactly today six months ago, I got to meet so many different people.
Exactly today six months ago, everything that I read in my textbooks became real.
Exactly today six months ago, I was employed.

Wow! Somehow I still can't believe how fast time passed by. Looking back to the past six months that I've been living, I know that I have made it this far only because He's been through it all with me. There are certainly many challenges; but I can definetely testify the Lord's goodness and grace have been sufficient. God has brought me to a whole different level of commitment.

With all these being said, I know that I can do it because I've got You. I know that when things get rough, I've got You. I know those good days that I have were given for me to taste because I've got You. And, I know that I am blessed because I've got You!

The sign is clear. I have my mind made up. I pray that God continues to open the next few doors in front of me as He sees fit.

new year's resolution(s)?

I once told my friends that I want to make a list of the so called Amelia Hendra's New Year Resolutions, simply because I've never had a list made! Never! So, that was kinda my new year resolution - making a new year resolution - if that makes sense. I even told them that I would make up a list just to go with the crowd. Everybody has one, so miss amelia should have one too! :)

This week I've been sick literally all week - didn't go to work, didn't go to church (man, I feel so convicted when I woke up this afternoon!). There were times when I really sat down and really tried making up a list. Guess what! It didn't work! Haha! Well, no matter what Amelia is still Amelia, isn't it? Well, not that I'm not motivated or anything to achieve a goal or perhaps goals this year, but speaking out of my own experience I find that whatever I had planned didn't match with what I've gotten or experienced.

For some reasons, God has taught me a BIG FAT lesson over the past few years. What I've learned through my personal devotions, sermons and group bible studies has actually come alive - my plan is certainly not His plan! He has brought my numerous last minute's surprise gifts that made me go, "WOW, GOD!"

This is really nothing against those who have made a new year's resolution. I still do believe that it's good for us to make up a list of goals that serves as a reminder for the year. And trust me, somehow I still wanna make up a list just so that I can tell others, "Oh yeah, I've made a list before!" :)

So this week, although I was sick and weak, my relationship with God has grown deeper. I was really fed with His Word - and it's amazing! I'm so content! And this year and the years ahead, my 'resolution' would be to become.... "a lady after His own heart!" And I pray that I may come to know Him, grow in Him and love Him more and more every minute of my life. Oh Lord, I'm so in love....

Oh by the way, I think I do need a second resolution! "I MUST LOSE WEIGHT!" And this is for real! Whewww, at least now I can tell others that "Oh, yeah! I did make up a new year's resolution before!"

Healing rain is coming down...

Again, God laid this song on my heart. Lord, I pray for Your healing rain. Come wash us with Your mercy! Come sing with me!

Healing rain is coming down
It's coming nearer to this old town
Rich and poor, weak and strong
It's bringing mercy, it won't be long

Healing rain is coming down
It's coming closer to the lost and found
Tears of joy, and tears of shame
Are washed forever in Jesus' name

Healing rain, it comes with fire
So let it fall and take us higher
Healing rain, I'm not afraid
To be washed in Heaven's rain

Lift your heads, let us return
To the mercy seat where time began
And in your eyes, I see the pain
Come soak this dry heart with healing rain

And only You, the Son of man
Can take a leper and let him stand
So lift your hands, they can be held
By someone greater, the Great I Am

Healing rain, it comes with fire
So let it fall and take us higher
Healing rain, I'm not afraid
To be washed in Heaven's rain
To be washed in Heaven's rain...

Healing rain is falling down
Healing rain is falling down
I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid...

Christ, You are my solid Rock!

During this situation I'm constantly reminded of His grace in my life. Somehow God often speaks to me through songs. This morning I was brought to this old hymn that we use to sing at church back home "The Solid Rock." I personally love the chorus.

This is my third day staying home. I'm still recuperating from the flu. God has once again shown me when I'm on my weakest mode, He is strong. God has spoken to me in a lot of ways. He also keeps reminding me that His arm is streched out to give me love and comfort through my brothers and sisters in Christ. Yesterday the girls at office came by and brought me some orange juice, a box of kleenex (Ha! How do they know I almost ran out of it?), ritz crackers, some medicines and a sweet card. Today, I got some more stuffs! Chicken soup and a bunch of Christian movies! And as I was finishing up this entry, someone knocked on my door. It was a FedEx lady. I got a card from my bros and sisters in Wichita. Oh, how I'm blessed! You guys have no idea how much I appreciate your love and care! Thanks a lot! Without God and all of you, I couldn't make it this far....

My hope is built on nothing less
Than Jesus’ blood and righteousness.
I dare not trust the sweetest frame,
But wholly trust in Jesus’ Name.

On Christ the solid Rock I stand,
All other ground is sinking sand;
All other ground is sinking sand.

When darkness seems to hide His face,
I rest on His unchanging grace.
In every high and stormy gale,
My anchor holds within the veil.

His oath, His covenant, His blood,
Support me in the whelming flood.
When all around my soul gives way,
He then is all my Hope and Stay.

Father, heal my mommy....

So this morning I woke up receiving a text message from my sis, Jennifer, saying that mom is now in the hospital in jakarta due to dengue fever. Her white blood cell count was only 20,000 when she was admitted to the hospital. Apparently, it dropped to 18,000 after that. I'm so worried. She is by herself in Jakarta, because the rest of our family is in Surabaya. My mind is just with her constantly. How I wish I was there in Jakarta to be with her.

This evening my sister told me that the doctor had undergone a blood transfusion. Her WBC count is now 19,000. Slow progress, but I know she is in God's hands. I trust the Lord to be the Greatest Physician!

"Lord, I pray for healing!"

You have clothed me with joy and gladness...

Forever God is faithful
Forever God is strong
Forever God is with us
Forever....

His love endures forever
His love endures forever
His love endures forever
His love endures forever

(Chris Tomlin - Forever)

I remember singing that song on new year's eve with heavy tears...
I remember singing that song on new year's eve with my heart aching...
I remember singing that song on new year's eve on my knees...

Not because I didn't believe that God was faithful at that time, but because I knew that the Lord's name will be glorified through all these situations that I have with my family. Not because I didn't believe that God was strong when everybody was sick, but because I knew that when I'm on my weakest knees, He is strong. Not because I didn't believe that God was with me, but because I knew He was holding me tight with the palm of His hands saying, "Stop crying, My daughter. Let Daddy take over!" Not because I didn't believe that His love endures forever, but because I couldn't comprehend how He endured those pains in the Calvary when I was really hurt that night.

This evening I got to talk to my mom and she told me that things have gotten so much better! My grandma is doing better. Melissa is released from the hospital. And, my dad is progressing very very well!

On new year's eve I was overwhelmed with sorrows. And right now I'm overwhelmed with the joy that the Lord gave me! God's promise has never failed! "You have turned my mourning into dancing" (Psalm 30:11).

I know when he said that "all things will work out for good for those who love Him and those who are called according to His purpose;" He really wasn't joking. My God knows what He's talking about. My God knows what He's doing. And my God is a Man of His own Word!

For those of you who read this entry and don't know or don't have a personal relationship with the God (Jesus) I'm talking about; I hope this entry will touch your heart, open your eyes to the Truth, and move you to accept Him as Your Lord and Savior.

For those of you who already have a personal relationship with the Lord, I hope this entry encourages you to keep your faith in Him and share the GOOD NEWS to others.

Friends, thanks for praying! Thanks for your e-cards, e-mails, text messages and phone calls. I'm sure my family appreciates those too! "The effective prayer of a righteous man can accomplish much. " James 5:16 (NASB)

And I will be still....

"When the oceans rise and thunders roar, I will soar with You above the storm.
Father, You are King over the flood. I will be still and know You are God."

This song is stuck in my head for the past few days. A lot of times I don't understand why things happen the way they are. My family members are physically not well at the moment. Both my dad and my youngest sister, Melissa, are in the hospital affected by dengue fever. Jennifer was sick too a couple days ago with similar symptoms. Melissa was admitted to the hospital on Dec. 31.

As I was getting ready to prepare for new year's eve service, I got a text message from Mom saying that my dad had to stay in the hospital too because his condition is even worse than Melissa's. Mom also asked me to pray for her, because she's having the same symptoms too. I couldn't contain my sorrow anymore that time. I was balling! I told Him more and more that I just couldn't take it anymore. I was overwhelmed. My only prayer was, "God, heal my family!"

This morning I got a text mesage from Mom saying that my grandma had to be out in the ICU because she got a heart attack. My mind is just at home now... How I wish I was there to help or do whatever I can.... Those of you who read this entry, I really covet your prayers. I know things happen for a reason. And mostly I know that God is in control. The Devil won't bring me down or keep me from serving my sovereign Lord because of all these incidents.

Somehow I'm always brought back to my life verse Romans 8:28 "And we know that all things work for good for those who love Him, for those who are called according to His purpose." Amen!