Surprise surprise...

Nice little surprises for me these days...

A girlfriend of mine dropped by my office yesterday... That was a nice surprise! It was her first time to my office, and I've never expected her to come by... Really made my day! Girlfriends are the bestttt!!

This morning a friend of mine from the other part of the world also called... That was another nice 'lil surprise! Hey, I hope you feel better, k?

Then I went to the office, and all the second year GTAs who are taking COMPS, including me, got cute little presents from Cori and Sandy. Yes, some chocolates and a CD that says "COMPS Music."

Oh yeah, couple of days ago I got some breads that were sent by FedEx! Hahaha! My kind of bread! The one similar to BreadTalk in Asia.... Thanks a lot, man! They were great!!!

I love surprises! They may seem simple to others, but I'm just blessed.

Oh ya! Speaking of surprises, COMPS are tomorrow!
I hope Dr. Dooley decides to be nice by not surprising me with all those hard questions!!

COMPS....

Okay, I totally can't wait for COMPS to be done! I'm totally looking forward to the 1st of April now! After all the whinings and cryings, the frustrations and the nightmares in the past, I just can't wait for it to be over. Let me see, it's Tuesday morning now, so that means I'm four days away from COMPS! Wuhoooo!

Also, I want to thank my friends for all of your supports! I'm not kidding! All of your text messages, msn messages, emails, phone calls and prayers really mean a lot!! It's really nice to have the encouragements from all of you! You are all the best!!!

Arrrghhh, just give me the exam, so I can breathe!!

my rainbow...

Now I know why I couldn't see that rainbow I've been waiting for after this long pouring rain...
That mountain is too high...
And the 'lil rainbow was hiding behind it....
So, should I climb up the mountain to see the rainbow now before it dissapears?
Or, should I go to the other side of the mountain?
Or, should I not care about the rainbow at all?
Hmm.....

So, it is finally over....

Yeah, today! Spring break is officially over....

No more break....

Missing that song so much....
Missing that life so much....

My last spring break...

Oh yeah! It's my last spring break! Sad? Happy? Well, I've gotta say both! Sad, coz later when I work, obviously there's no such thing as spring break. Happy, coz that means I don't have to study anymore! Haha! Since this is my last spring break, many of my friends advised that I should enjoy to the fullest! Well, I really wish I could do that. But, I have this COMPS that I have to study. So, before spring break started, I kept telling my friends and of course myself that I'll be studying! Yeah! No Kansas City trip, no late nite movies, no late nite snacks, no nothing! Coz why? Amelia needs to study!

Guess what! Didn't work out! Yes, I went to Kansas City(I brought my folder though, but of course I didn't study), I had all the mid nite snacks, and haha! Yes! I never missed the DVD nites. Oh God! What was I doing?!! I dunno, but I just can't concentrate. My mind is totally somewhere else!

Today is Saturday, I'm a week away from COMPS, and guess what! Haha! Nothing sticks in my brain! So, I think I better get my acts together now! (I know... I've been saying this since God knows when...) But, this time is for real!! I mean business (Haha! I know you'll say... yeah.. yeah...)

Anyways, spring break is over... So that means, Amelia won't have spring break anymore....

I changed the song again!

Haha! I just changed the song again! I really love this song.... It's an Indonesian song sang by a very famous singer, Krisdayanti.... I really love it! Enjoy the clip! Here's the lyrics (together with the translation), if you wanna sing along!

Cobalah Untuk Setia
(Please try to be faithful)

Apalah maumu kasih,
(What is it that you want, my love?)
kau pilih diriku di dalam hidupmu
(You chose me to be in your life)
Nyatanya kulihat ini,
(But, this is what I see)
tak bisa kau coba untuk setia
(You can't even try to be faithful)

Sudah cukuplah sudah,
(Enough, it's enough)
kumemberikan waktu
(I've given you all the time you need)
Kau selalu tak bisa mencoba untuk setia...
(But you always can't even try to be faithful)

Chorus:
Yang selalu kuinginkan, yang selalu kunanti
(Whatever I want, whatever I wait for)
Kau coba untuk mengerti, apalah arti mencinta
(Please try to understand, what does it mean to love?)
Dan harus kau sadari, bila ingin bersamaku
(You've got to realize, if you wanna be with me)
Jangan coba kau ingkari, cobalah untuk setia...
(Don't try to break the promise, please try to be faithful)

Bridge:
Masihkah aku diinginkan, masihkah aku didambakan
(Am I still wanted? Am I still longed by you?)
Masihkah ada waktu untukmu bersamamu, akankah kujalani hidup...
(Is there still time for you to be with me? Am I gonna live this life?)

Chorus

Dan harus kau sadari, bila ingin bersamaku
(And you've got to realize, if you wanna be with me)
Jangan coba kau ingkari, cobalah untuk setia...
(Don't break your promise, please try to be faithful)

Blink! Blink!

A friend of mine in the ESC told me few days ago that she had to go to an eye doctor. She explained to me that couple days before she went to the doctor, she felt that something's bugging her eyes. Eyes were redish, then painful... She felt her eyes were dry too... untillotsa tears came out! Then I said... yah yahh me too!! I think I told some of my friends too about that.... And the strangest thing was that I didn't even wear my contacts then... so definetely not my contacts....

Anyways, she went on with her story.... She told the doctor that she's been writing her thesis and studying for COMPS... She said she had been spending hours and hours in front of the computer... Wah... very similar to my situation! Haha! Then the doctor checked her vision and all the details.. everything was fine....

The doctor then came with a conclusion that, when we're doing our stuffs, like studying or being in front of the computer, do remember to blink!

Haha! You probably think, whattt? Blink? Yes, blinking is very very important! So for those of you who are working hard (read: Jasmine! haha!) please don't forget to blink! You all don't wanna spend big bucks at the eye doctor just to discover you forgot to blink!

So lets start now! Blink! Blink! Blink!

My fabolous chinese experience..

I went to a Chinese Bible Study today! Haha! You probably think, what is wrong with Amelia? Haha! Yah, if I were you, I think you're asking a very valid question. I didn't understand any word they said. But, I still went! Why? Because one of my girlfriends here in Wichita accepted the Christ about two weeks ago, and today she gave her testimony about how God touched her heart. Totally learned a lot... There were seven of them who gave testimonies. Yes, they were all in Chinese. And they were all wonderful! Thanks to Yong Chen for being a great translator too!

I enjoyed the singing part. Although I couldn't read the words on the powerpoint, I knew the songs in my own language. So, I hummed... Those were really the songs I grew up with... I felt like I was home... The style of the service was exactly the same as how we did it back home. The format of the worship was very similar too! The only difference was the language...

The funny thing was that when I walked into the room, couple people smiled and said, "Ni Hao?" And everytime they wanted to say something, my friends has to tell them that I don't know Chinese.. Haha! So, I guess I really look Chinese? Haha! Well, yes I am Chinese, but I just don't know how to speak the language. People say I'm a banana (yellow on the outside, but white inside) But, today I just felt the confirmation of being Chinese haha! Must be my moisturizers and creams! Also another funny part is, I always knew when it's time to pray.. Yong Chen laughed at me! He just didn't remember that I know the word "Tao Kao" means pray... But that's fine... I let him had fun by laughing at me today...

Anyways, had a great time! Looking at how they got saved, I'm still praying for some of my friends. I know my timing isn't God's. I'm just waiting, praying and surrendering for God to touch their hearts...

I can see the world better!!

Yeah! I literally meant it! I totally can see the world better now! Why? My mommy got me a new pair of contact lens! Yee haaa! So, that means I don't have to wear those nerdy looking glasses all the time! Haha! It's been a month! And for me, that means it's been ages! I'm loving what I see now, coz of course I see things better and I don't look sleepy anymore! Haha!

And, I realized I haven't been blogging for quite a while... I got so tied up with COMPS and Thesis! And when my buddy wrote on one of her entries that she felt the world is passing her by, I totally can hear her! Haha! But that's okay, two more weeks and we can be free like birds, buddy! Yesss! We'll fly highhhh and see the world again, buddy! Haha! I'm so excited and I just can't wait for that moment!

Out of those 21 study questions, I have three more to work on. I'll be done with those by this weekend! Yeah, the past two weeks were rough! Not enough sleep or sometimes not even sleeping! You probably can tell from my past entries on this blog! Oh well, it'll soon be over!

Oh! And I came accross this old song that I thought is very appropriate to my situation...

I Can See Clearly Now
by Johnny Nash

I can see clearly now, the rain is gone,
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright) Sun-Shiny day.

I think I can make it now, the pain is gone
All of the bad feelings have disappeared
Here is the rainbow I’ve been prayin' for
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright) Sun-Shiny day.

Look all around, there’s nothin' but blue skies
Look straight ahead, nothin' but blue skies

I can see clearly now, the rain is gone,
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright) Sun-Shiny day.

My book...

Life is like a book. Has different chapters. Has different characters that come and go. Has angels (the ones people will like) and devils (the ones that make people mad). My life has different chapters and people who are significant to the events in life and the ones who just pass by or watch from the distance.

Recently I found my "timeline" that we did in church about two years ago. It was an activity using different colors of "post-it" sticky paper. Red to identify crisis in life; yellow to identify significant event in my life. There were people that are significant in my life that have been around from the time I was born till now. There were people who were significant in my life back then and now dissapear. There were names that showed up during my teenage and college years. But there was one name I noticed that has never disappeared. Yes, it's Jesus...

I really wouldn't have been here right now, if it wasn't by His grace and mercy. With all the things that I went through this past week, God spoke to me in many ways. I still can't change what has happened. I still can't remove the heartache till now. But, I know I have hope...

So friends,
If I got you worried this few days, I'm sorry..
If you had to be on the phone with me for hours listening to whatever nonsense I had, I'm sorry..
If you had to deal with all this, I'm sorry...
If you asked and asked and never got an answer, I'm sorry...

I'm ending that blue chapter in my 'book' now and moving on to my next chapter...

Thanks for all the prayers.
Thanks for all the e-mails.
Thanks for all the minutes you wasted.
Thanks for all the encouraging words.
Thanks for all the hours you spent staying up late with me.
Thanks for all the songs you gave me.
Thanks for everything...

LeeYa