I think I'm in love...
Well, wait!
I think I'm really really in love!

The past weekend was really hectic for me. Loads and loads of assignments and stuffs here and there that needed to be done. I was tired and 'sick.' But, the good thing is I finally got a chance to catch up with some sleeps yesterday and today... I'm now fully recharged and refreshed! Yeah!

We did a table display for The Mission yesterday at the RSC handing out some flyers. I'm thankful that I could be there the whole time and watched people pass by. As I was sitting there, I thought and looked back at my life, I can testify that I'm really blessed! I really feel that I am. Yes, I do have the ups and downs in my life. And sometimes I feel that my problems will never have the solution. Everybody experiences the same thing, I'm sure!

But one thing that I realize, God's love for me never fails.
God never said when you follow me, everything will be bright and beautiful all the time. But He sure said that everything happens for a reason. And He promised that everything will be beautiful in the end. He promised that He has a wonderful plan for each of us.

He knows our past. Even if we think that our past is too dark, He said it's okay, I love you. He knows our present. He understands what we're going through. He knows whatever we think about even before we open our mouth and say it. And when we say, "God, I don't deserve You because I'm such a bad person" He says, "That's fine! I still love you! That's why I died on the cross! It's for your sins." He knows our future. He knows what kind of job we're gonna have. He knows where we're gonna be located in the next two years, five years, 10 years or even 25 years! He knows everything.

When I felt my world was falling apart, when I felt that I don't have anything to hold so that I can stand still, when I felt that I was only by myself,
God has always been there for me.
He gave me His hands so that I can hold on to Him.
He carried me so that I won't fall.
He guided me and gave me direction so that I won't be lost.
He looks at me deep in my eyes and assures me that He loves me always and forever no matter what.

Yes, I always feel His love in my life. But yesterday and today, it's becoming more and more real. All I can say right now is I'm amazed by His unconditional love. And, I love Him more! Yes, much more! I can't wait to see what He's going to do in my life. And, I'm ready! I wouldn't trade Him for anything in this world. Not for anything!

"The simplest of all love songs, I want to bring to You

So, I'll let my words be few

Jesus, I am so in love with You"

from: Let my words be few

Phillips Craig and Dean

Lee Ya is homesick!

It's been about one month and 11 days since I'm back here in Wichita...
You probably think that, Oh! You've just been here for a month and you already miss home? Ridiculous? haha! But, it's true! Lee Ya is truly homesick!

Miss mommy's cooking...
Miss my little princess, Joy...
Miss those chit chat times with my girlfriends...
Miss relaxing at home...
Miss being driven around...
Miss buying good food on the street...
Miss the busyness of Jakarta...
Miss the praise and worship at JPCC...
Bottom line, I miss being home....

I chatted with one of my highschool friends this morning. He mentioned about the bird's flu that's going around again in Indonesia... I guess I have a flu too today... But, it's a HOME flu!
Anybody has the medicine for me??

Anyway, here's some pics taken when I was in Bandung last summer...

Buying Durian Ice Cream on the street in Bandung

Eating Durian Ice Cream on the street in Bandung

Kansas State Fair...

Went to the state fair today after we got home from church... Had lotsa fun there, except for one thing! I GOT TANNED! It was really hot today and I don't think my sunblock did a good job in 'blocking' the sun! Mannn... I need a whitening cream!!!

Anyways, ate lots and lots of fair's food also there! We went with limited budget, but that's what made it really fun! When we wanted to buy anything to eat, everyone just chipped in their quarters, dimes and pennies! This is what you really call friends! hahaha! Friends when we are happy, and friends when we are in need! And obviously, we were all in need, coz we were all hungry....

We passed by all the rides.. And one ride really stood out to me! Yeap! It's the Ferris Wheel! This is the ride that I love the most since I was really young! That ride really reminded me of one episode from the TV series "The OC" that was aired two summers ago... One sweet episode that always makes me smile! Haha! Yeap! It's when Marissa asked Ryan to go ride the Ferris Wheel.... Ryan is scared of height, but he still went and rode with her with his eyes closed the whole time (haha!), just because he knew Marissa loves it...

And here comes the best part! When they were supposed to get off the wheel and Marissa was actually getting ready to go down, he gave money to the ride's operator STILL with his eyes closed (due to his fear.. haha!) and said, "One more time!" So, they went for another round! Aaaawwwwwhhhhhh...... that's so sweet, Ryan!!

Thoughts after thoughts....

Hmmm... been doing lots and lots of thinking for the past few weeks.. Yeah, i meant lots! I got to the point where I told myself, okay! Gotta sort through every thought one by one... So, I started listing everything that I've been thinking about... and if you want to go down the list, hahah! You don't wanna know how many numbers I had!

Then, being a communication major student who just took her research method class last fall, I decided to find the emergent themes from all the thoughts that I have... Yeah! I did a content analysis of what's been running on my mind! Wow! I'm sure Dr. Dooley will be very very proud of me, if she reads my blog! I can't even believe myself that I'm actually putting what I have learned into practice! Wow! I'm still amazed...

Anyway, I guess all students really face this tough situation when they are about to graduate. "WHAT'S NEXT?" Am I right? We get that question a lot from friends, family, relatives or even other people in general.... So yeah, that's the first emergent theme that I got from the list. Then, second, WHERE? Am I gonna be home or here in the US after graduation? And it is in the US, is it gonna be here in Wichita or somewhere else? West coast or east coast? This is really tough! As much as I love my friends and family here in Wichita, I do love the place where I was born and where I grew up that I can always call HOME to death... Yes, home where you feel that you do belong there....

As I thought and prayed about all these, I'm very grateful to always know that God has a wonderful plan for me. He has reserved the right job and the right place where I should be at.... A very very close friend of mine (who is a buddy to me too) 'woke me up' and reminded me that when a person still has the chance to choose from different options, he or she should be thankful. Some people are stuck with the situation that they have. They can't go anywhere, because they don't have the luxury to choose which path to go for their lives. And I thought, "This is very true!" What an eye opening thought for me!

All these made me realize that God loves me so much that He has blessed me with so many wonderful people in my life that I can really count on. My parents who are always there for me and support whatever I decide in mylife. They actually offer their perspectives too, which is great! My sisters who are always here with me... My buddy, Jasmine, who always encourages me during my grad school life... My brothers at the Mission who always help me when me and my sisters are in need, pray for me when I face difficult times and pick me up when I'm down with their crazy jokes and their 'stupidity' haha! My girlfriends back home that always send those funny emails to keep me updated.... (Gosh, I miss them so much!) My church families for their love and caring... Without these people in my life I don't think I'm gonna make it this far... (Man, I feel like I'm giving an acceptance speech at the grammy award or something! :p)

So in conclusion (I always teach my students to give a signal when they are about to end their speeches), after weeks and weeks full of thinking, I know what I really want to do now! I'll sure enjoy these last 8 months before graduation to the fullest! So, Jakarta (at least for now), you are next!

Buhbye summer...

"Summer romances end for all kinds of reasons. But when all is said and done, they have one thing in common: They are shooting stars-a spectacular moment of light in the heavens, a fleeting glimpse of eternity. And in a flash, they're gone..."

-Duke "The Notebook"

I wanna go homeeeeeeeee!!!!!