Friendship is mutual. It totally cannot be forced. I haven't been forcing it. And, I don't plan on forcing it. I tried my best to always be there whenever I was needed. Lending my ears as much as I could. Giving up my sleep as much as it's needed. Don't get me wrong, I enjoyed being available when a friend is in need. And, I still do. I celebrated the happy moments that this friend had. Tried my best to be an encourager.
However, when I go through something, I'm not sure where this friend is at. When I celebrate my happy moments, I'm not sure if this friend was around.
The past year or so have been a friendship roller coaster ride for me. It wasn't an intensive ride that I'm really conscious about the whole time. But, I come to realize that this ride has to end somewhere. And, I finally have found my exit door.
Sometimes I wonder, if I'm just a "big dumpster" to hold all those complaints. Well, I don't know..
All I know is I am mentally exhausted.
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everything ok in your part of the world?
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