Thoughts after thoughts....

Hmmm... been doing lots and lots of thinking for the past few weeks.. Yeah, i meant lots! I got to the point where I told myself, okay! Gotta sort through every thought one by one... So, I started listing everything that I've been thinking about... and if you want to go down the list, hahah! You don't wanna know how many numbers I had!

Then, being a communication major student who just took her research method class last fall, I decided to find the emergent themes from all the thoughts that I have... Yeah! I did a content analysis of what's been running on my mind! Wow! I'm sure Dr. Dooley will be very very proud of me, if she reads my blog! I can't even believe myself that I'm actually putting what I have learned into practice! Wow! I'm still amazed...

Anyway, I guess all students really face this tough situation when they are about to graduate. "WHAT'S NEXT?" Am I right? We get that question a lot from friends, family, relatives or even other people in general.... So yeah, that's the first emergent theme that I got from the list. Then, second, WHERE? Am I gonna be home or here in the US after graduation? And it is in the US, is it gonna be here in Wichita or somewhere else? West coast or east coast? This is really tough! As much as I love my friends and family here in Wichita, I do love the place where I was born and where I grew up that I can always call HOME to death... Yes, home where you feel that you do belong there....

As I thought and prayed about all these, I'm very grateful to always know that God has a wonderful plan for me. He has reserved the right job and the right place where I should be at.... A very very close friend of mine (who is a buddy to me too) 'woke me up' and reminded me that when a person still has the chance to choose from different options, he or she should be thankful. Some people are stuck with the situation that they have. They can't go anywhere, because they don't have the luxury to choose which path to go for their lives. And I thought, "This is very true!" What an eye opening thought for me!

All these made me realize that God loves me so much that He has blessed me with so many wonderful people in my life that I can really count on. My parents who are always there for me and support whatever I decide in mylife. They actually offer their perspectives too, which is great! My sisters who are always here with me... My buddy, Jasmine, who always encourages me during my grad school life... My brothers at the Mission who always help me when me and my sisters are in need, pray for me when I face difficult times and pick me up when I'm down with their crazy jokes and their 'stupidity' haha! My girlfriends back home that always send those funny emails to keep me updated.... (Gosh, I miss them so much!) My church families for their love and caring... Without these people in my life I don't think I'm gonna make it this far... (Man, I feel like I'm giving an acceptance speech at the grammy award or something! :p)

So in conclusion (I always teach my students to give a signal when they are about to end their speeches), after weeks and weeks full of thinking, I know what I really want to do now! I'll sure enjoy these last 8 months before graduation to the fullest! So, Jakarta (at least for now), you are next!